homie G's in the heezies.

Good night!  What has been happening here.  Well, i'm writing to you from my brother's temperpedic bed, as to which, i'm pretty sure, screwed up my back.  Anyways, it's now 10:56 in the pm, and today was a very blah day, as was the day before, and well, the day before.  I wanted to rejoin swimteam again this year, but there's only one coach for three teams, and, she said it was full.  There goes that, now i just need to not die from being so unhealthy.  I talked with Cookie today, she was in japan with Chinako, and some guys in this band called mae... yeah, i know, weird name, right?  Well, i'm jealous and wish i could be out of the country, good traveling to you two, and come back with amazing stories and photos.<3> On a side note, my grandma and uncle emailed my mom yesterday about the college, UNLV, the university in las vegas, and that they were adding a journalism media school there, and that i should consider going and that i could stay with them...  That'd be pretty tight, you know?  But, i'm sticking with my master plan, OCC Photo school two years, then transferring to Northridge or another good journalism school.  We'll see!  Where ever life takes me.  I'll go with the flow.

peter bjorn & john on the tv.

I'm sitting in the family room with peter bjorn & john playing on the tv.  They are amazing live, and i'd like to go see them, anyways, I basically love chillin' time.  Though I have some econ homework to finish, that stuff is really hard, i dont understand it.  Whateverrrrr, i'm just procrastinating, and wanting it to be friday night already.  i have to serve a "saturday" school tomorrow, echk.  i'm annoyed.  You know what, I really miss playing volleyball all the time, i really do.  it bums me out i don't play anymore.  anyways, the other night we had our "Senior munch" at medieval times.  I wasn't really looking forward to this very much, but it was an awesome time.  "Green machine!"  it rocked.  anyways, i'm going to peace out!

Well, eff.

Hello.  I had spent last night at my cousin's house, to get away from all the chaos.  It was a nice time spent with my cousin, aunt, and uncle.  They were really there for me in my time of need, do i make things sound more serious then they are most of the time?  Not this time though.  My aunt prayed with me, and for the first time in a while, i felt a spiritual connection with God.  Because lately, i've been so distant, like you can't even imagine.  Everything happens for a reason, that's basically a "quote" i live by, even when things are really fucked up and out of control, it happens for a reason.  Just like what's happening right now, and why we lose the friends we do, you may not know it now, but you will later on in life.  I suck at writing, but I enjoy venting and things like this.  

I've been trying to repatch(?) my old relationships with friends.  I've had too many relationships that are ended or not really talked about for the lamest reasons, kind of laziness i guess.  And since i've been trying to become a better person, this helps.  A few friends are willing to start talking again and some really just don't care about it/you and like to hold grudges.  Or when your friend gets upset with you, and stops talking to you right on the spot, but won't tell you why she's mad or what you did was wrong.  It makes me feel like a bad person.  But I figure, if you're going to act like that, why do i need you in my life?  I don't.  

I'm checking in.

For a reality check.

Just blogging now, flickr, and the photo myspace.   I'm having an awful day.  Please be thankful for your family, and your situation if it's a good one.  Please.