Lately, i've been fed up, tired, nostalgic, trying to keep the positive energy flowin'.  It's hard at times to stay positive.  I'm fed up a little with my parents, i'm really kind of an adult now, so stop worrying so much, and let me live, like you taught me how, like you raised me.  Honest, i love my parents, they are amazing human beings for dealing with so much, but cut me some slack, i know what's up, i know how to take on life from now.  I miss my florida lovelies so bad, i miss them, it's ridiculous, i hope i get a visit soon.  I don't know, Wendy is strange, she told me these things, & none of it's really been so true, so far.  But, i'm young, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to have gone to her, i don't really have my mind grasped around something so certain, it's kind of everywhere.  this blog is honestly about nothing, and just whatever comes to my mind as i'm writing this.  I have a headache, and i never really get those.  8:00-5:00 two different jobs.  Hello adulthood.  I've also realized, i have a hard time trusting people.  How do I know you really feel this way about this?  Or how do i know you won't tell anyone this?  Or how do i know you won't just be there for me for a few days, and then stop after that.  I am pretty tough, dealt with a lot of crap from a lot of people.  It's not that I can't handle being treated like this, it's just that i hate it.  anyways, this was a ridiculous blog. goodnight.

laurenashley