reflection?

I needed a good one of my tattoo.

Venice beach.
Sushi in downtown fullerton.





So i'm in a mood to write a blog. It's freezing, i'm chilling, and this rainy weather, always gets me thinking. Bright eyes, tourist trap, right now, it sounds pretty good. Today was a legit day, hung out with some people down in la habra, end my night with julie kevin and them, thanks for my mickeys jewlee<3 i love you. Tomorrow i'll probably wake up and have to try and remember my day today. I've had a lot of life learning lessons lately. I figure life is full of them, so i need to get used to it. I've realized the world isn't all just peace and love(on a serious level). Not everyone is all going to get along. True story. Uhmmmmmmmmmmm. hmm. whatelse. i dont know anymore. My day was a good one, i dont know if it owuld have been the same without the rain, ya know? Oh well, anyways. I dgaff, i've decided i'm offically a bro. I wish i didn't stress and think so much. I'd like to get over it.

goodnight.
laurenklein

I need a self evaluation. because i've just been too down on myself lately.

I am lauren ashley klein.
I love who i am, and wouldn't change a thing about myself.
My mom is Filipino, my dad is Hungarian/Jewish.
I talk too much sometimes.
I'm a nice person, too nice, to the point where i apparently attract desperate guys.
I wear my heart on my sleeve, but currently, i can't, because it would make things ridiculous.
I love music. Any genre, it just has to be legit, in my opinion.
I'm extremely open minded, and like to hear what others have to say, i'm genuinely interested.
I have a lot of friends, but i'm only close to a few.
I love animals, minus reptiles.
I don't eat red meat, i am a pollotarian
I love hanging out with my friends, but i love being alone.
I over think things.
Before i die, i'd like to:
travel the world
have someone write a song for me
camp with pandas
visit the Philippines and Israel
I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that there's a reason for everything.
I wish that i could read people, but sometimes i just can't.
It's been forever since i've liked anyone.
I trust people way too easily, but, i dont at the same time.
I want a legit boy in my life, that can just be there for me, and understands, it's harder than it seems.
I love photography, everything about it.
I'm almost game for anything, unless it's just dumb.
I love being outside.
I can't make up my mind.
I'm awesome.

Love,
Laurenash

sigh.

Alright as of late, i've been just cruisin. Honestly, i like where i am at my life, even though it is just at a stand still. I feel like my life should be how it is right now. I'd like to just say, i love all of my friends, and without them i would be so bummed on life. SO BUMMED. And i'm just not down to feel bummed. I've made some pretty tight friends i have a feeling we'll be friends for a long time, which is always good. I'm tired and i don't feel like driving to school to work on a project. First i have to shower go to michaels then go to school. EHHHH not down. Yesterday Julie and i went to second spin, and i've decided, i'm going to start buying a cd a week. Or try to atleast, i have no mon! But, i just bought three, so that works. I'm offically in the friend zone guys. It's a bumma!
<3

updatin'

So, it's been a while, and i've decided, i'm going to start bloggin' again. So, i have yet to have a sober day this week. Today's looking good, but i know either before work, or after i'm bound to break it.

My parents are being ridiculous again. Hi, i'm eighteen years old, you don't pay for anything, i go to school, i go to work. Do you REALLY have anything to say to me? No, you honestly don't, but i'll deal with it, because i get to live here for free, and you have food at the house sometimes which means, i don't have to spend money on it. I'm honestly just over it. They are going away next weekend, and I'm stoked about it. Kickkking back.

I don't know, I at first didn't want to admit to liking you, now, i'd like to tell you. But, i dont know, i feel friendzone. And, friendzone, is not where you want to be when you like someone. It's a bummer. But, in time i guess. And this is why, i havent liked anyone in 4 years, i forgot how much it would mess with me. I don't know, i'm over telling you how i feel.

Cool.

ARRRRRRGH.

i know that picture really sucks.  but it was taken from a roof top in san fran.  How I love love love that place.  COLLEGE started yesterday, petitioning is what I have to do to get in.  Oye, whatever.  I feel so tired emotionally.  Hate ems.  Oh well, I feel like I should be seeing mae soon, this time last year, it was like one big mae party in the summer.  But neh, they're taking over the east coast.  thanks guys.  

I miss my mae fam. What's up with that?  I dont know, i'm nostalgic.  Nostalgia and holding back tears, are, in my opinion, the worst two feelings ever.  

Kay, time to get reads. for school. 

<3peaceout.

I really don't like people.

New job, since a few weeks ago, Color-Me-Mine, while still working at my old job.  I know, hey, I'm not complaining, just saying, I'm learning to deal with all different kinds of people.  My boss's mom is the owner of the store.  My boss's mom, is the owner, and thinks she is God, she thinks she is better than everyone else, "You, come here."  I'm sorry, I have a name, it's Lauren, look, see, my name tag?  That's what i really wanted to say to her, but i didn't.  At my other job, I do a lot of nothing, but what I do, do, is probably one of the most important things in the whole store.  It's cool, it's life.  But today, after work, i went to get my car washed, cool, awesome, nice clean car.  What?  Get home, scratches on around my car, both sides, ridiculous.  I called, and spoke to, "George" pronounced, HORE HAY.  He could possibly be on of the dumbest human beings i've had a conversation with over the phone.  YOU are paying for my car to be repainted.  And yesterday, I before work, i got in a fight with the parents, but it turned into something that contained tearing up, and deep convo. about how I am approaching the biggest milestone in my life, surprisingly this didn't come from my mom, it came from dear old d a d.  I dont know, really?  Anyway, when I talked to HORE HAY he told me to come before 730, right?  So i was going to meet my mom there so she would know what was going on, i had to go back to the car wash and have them look at my car, my mom got there before me and told me that they had cones up as if they were closed.  So i call, and some guy tells me that they are closed, and i talk to HORE HAY, he confuses himself, but then remembers oh wait, we DO CLOSE at 630, we OPEN at 730, HOREHAY, OH HAIL NO.  So i guess i'm going back tomorrow with my dad, haha this should be fun.  On my way back from driving to the carwash, after finding out they were CLOSED, i was freaking out about orientation/college, work, my ticket/courtdate, and the scratches all over my car, blasting Sherwood, and I pull up beind a car that has "Harvest Crusade" stickers, and their license plate said, "WWJD"  I didn't really know what to think, so i just laughed, and continued to drive home.  I read something about chronic stress disorder in a magazine yesterday.

peace

laurenklein

Lately, i've been fed up, tired, nostalgic, trying to keep the positive energy flowin'.  It's hard at times to stay positive.  I'm fed up a little with my parents, i'm really kind of an adult now, so stop worrying so much, and let me live, like you taught me how, like you raised me.  Honest, i love my parents, they are amazing human beings for dealing with so much, but cut me some slack, i know what's up, i know how to take on life from now.  I miss my florida lovelies so bad, i miss them, it's ridiculous, i hope i get a visit soon.  I don't know, Wendy is strange, she told me these things, & none of it's really been so true, so far.  But, i'm young, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to have gone to her, i don't really have my mind grasped around something so certain, it's kind of everywhere.  this blog is honestly about nothing, and just whatever comes to my mind as i'm writing this.  I have a headache, and i never really get those.  8:00-5:00 two different jobs.  Hello adulthood.  I've also realized, i have a hard time trusting people.  How do I know you really feel this way about this?  Or how do i know you won't tell anyone this?  Or how do i know you won't just be there for me for a few days, and then stop after that.  I am pretty tough, dealt with a lot of crap from a lot of people.  It's not that I can't handle being treated like this, it's just that i hate it.  anyways, this was a ridiculous blog. goodnight.

laurenashley